Something You've Been Putting Off: Response

This is the new prompt at Charmed I'm Sure. I'm sitting here wracking my brains trying to figure out exactly what I've been putting off. I guess I've been putting off the actual cleaning and cleansing of my house, waiting to move in. I could in all reality go over there right now and sweep the floors, lug water over there to mop the floors, straighten up my bedroom, bring the sheets over to Mom's and wash them, cleanse the bed, and start putting things away, that way I'll have less to do when I do get hooked up to electricity.

You know what, now that I'm writing about it, that is definitely something I've been putting off. I could go over there tomorrow (in the daylight) and rearrange furniture, unpack everything and put it away, throw away what needs to be thrown away (like the bread that some how got left in there which is probably really bad by now... I wonder if you can put bread in a compost pile?), go through the clothes and such that are in there and see what needs to go to Good Will, and then I could go out to my little brother's shop where stuff is being stored and see what can be given away, got rid of in some way. These are things I can definitely do, I've just been putting them off with the excuse of waiting for the house to be hooked up to electricity. The cleansing ritual will have to wait until I have electricity because even though it's okay for me to clear out the clutter, my house feels differently energy wise when it's hooked up to electricity than it does when it's not, so I want to wait for it to be complete before cleansing it.

So, tomorrow after I get back from taking Mom to the doctor, I will work with what daylight I have and continue working until I can't see. Then I'll bring in the stuff from the shop and work on that here in Mom's house.

I Can Change One Thing

Thanks to a lovely friend Aurora from The Witch Inside, I found another New Year kind of thing. It's called I Can Change One Thing. WitchyLyn over at Witch Blog is putting this one on. She's made a really neat journal for the month of January. The idea is to work on one little thing each day in the journal, that way you've worked on a few things for the entire month by the time of the next Sabbat. I'm gladly joining in on this. I've already downloaded the journal. It's free to download so hop on over there and check it out! I feel like this fits in wonderfully with the New Year, New You Experiment. I'll be adding the button for this one to the sidebar in just a moment, and of course I'll keep you updated on the things going on!

Goals: My Response

Okay, here's my second response to the New Year, New You party going on over at Charmed I'm Sure. The second prompt is about our goals. Click here to read more about this prompt. Deb asks, "What do you want to accomplish in 2012 using both magical and mundane means?" So here is my answer :D

I just recently graduated from nail tech school, so one of my goals for this year is to be successful. Yes, that might sound cliche or weird or whatever you feel like branding it, but while I was in school I had a teacher that constantly told me I was going to fail either in school or in the salon. I want to prove her wrong. I plan on accomplishing that by doing my professional best, and working a little success spell as well ;)

I've bounced between romantic relationships that were not the best for me all this past year. I plan on trying to avoid that. Of course, I would love to be in a wonderful relationship, and have someone to share my life with, but I'm going to be a little more selective about who I allow into my life. I do not plan on casting any love spells, but I do plan on casting a seeing spell on myself, so I can see what's good for me and what's not.

Those are the two big ones, and I really can't think of anything more to say on it. I'm sure I'll come up with more throughout the week, so I'll probably elaborate on this, but there's what I have for now! I am so happy to be taking part in this "experiment" as Deb puts it. Like I've said before, I'm glad to know I'm not the only one feeling the need for change and self improvement right now.

Making Way: Response

So, I recently found this new really cool party going on called New Year, New You, over at Charmed I'm Sure. Now the fact that I started this blog as a way to completely restart on my spiritual and personal journey makes this party even more important to me. Click here to find out what this rigamarole is all about, then click here to read the first prompt, then click here to read the most recent, because as always I'm a wee bit late to the party.

I'm really digging this party in all honesty because it means I'm not doing all this alone! Now... for the first prompt. Miss Deborah has started the party with "Making Way," for the new you. This includes, surprise, surprise DECLUTTERING! Which is something I've been working on these past couple of days. Just like when I was talking about clearing my chakras, decluttering does the same thing, just mentally, and in the mundane world (like when you throw away those clothes that you don't wear anymore, but just can't seem to let them go).

So, as my response, this is the plan I have... My house will be hooked up to electricity this coming week. While I'm staying with Mom and Dad, waiting for that to happen, I've been working on my emotional baggage. It's been a year and a half since Gram passed away, but I'm still holding on to her like my life depends on it, and for a while, my life did depend on it. Now I'm healing, and though I'm not 100% ready to let her go, I'm working on at least decluttering the feelings wrapped around that big ole mess. I am working on my insecurities when it comes to relationships, familial and romantic, and as soon as the electricity is on at my house, I will be tearing into it like no other!

It's hard for me to describe the things I'm dealing with emotionally. But here's a couple of things. The death of Gram really knocked me back, a lot, and that's an understatement. I'm working on getting back to who I personally am. When she died I turned my back on my religion, and now I'm working on getting back to my personal beliefs. The decluttering helps a lot. Aphrodite used to be my patroness, but since turning my back on my religion, she and I are not as close as we used to be. When I first learned that, I thought it was just a matter of working closely with her again, but I've realized that, while I'll always love Aphrodite, and there will always be a place in my heart for her, I've grown and changed as a person. Working with her used to feel like putting on a coat that fit just right, it felt like a loved one was enveloping me in pure love and light. While that feeling is still there, because Aphrodite does love me, I feel like we're not matched like we used to be. So I am now on the road to finding a new patron or patroness.

I am sorting through my feelings about religion and tossing out those that I wrongfully tried to live by to please everyone after Gram passed. That story is a long one, but I'll suffice it to say that I was told I was the one that killed Gram because of my religion. My religion had brought the devil into the house which in turn killed Gram. For quite a while I wondered about that. Growing up in a Catholic church made me wonder for a little while if I hadn't been duped by the devil into believing that Paganism is okay, just to take me to Hell. But, while I know for sure I believe in evil (because there could be no good if there was no evil), I do not believe in the devil. I don't believe in a little guy with a pitchfork following me around all day trying to get me to screw up. Even the most dark of all gods wouldn't do that to every single person, every single minute of the day, it's just too damn tiring! I love the feeling of peace, happiness, and rightness that flows through me when I connect with Mother Earth, the gods and goddesses, and when I do spell work and work on my meditations. If it makes me happy, in a non-violent way, how can it be something the devil created?

So there you have it my friends... there's more that I'm working on to clear the way, but there's just not enough time to write it all down lol. Plus I'm quite sure you would get tired of reading it all after a while, because I know I have a tendency to ramble. So I hope you're path clearing is working as well for you as mine is for me. I wish you luck on this journey we are now all taking! Brightest blessings to you all, and may you find what you seek!